I am trying to remember you before 

So that I don’t hate you In my memories 

Not a glimpse of the love I was once so 

In love with 

Not a glimmer of recognition in eyes that could tell me a million stories before they blinked 

Not a glimpse of the once in a lifetime beauty that had surpassed its once 

I’m trying to erase the reasons I thought I had 

So that my soul does not look for yours 

Eternally seeking the afterlife 

As we, down here, exist only in the lifeafter