I didn’t know I was going to stay 

That a few short days or weeks or maybe minutes later I’d be counting down

Time 

And wading through the space 

Until I could see her again. 

Hope came into focus through her voice and in it I could see into forever 

Mornings bathed in cool comfort 

While a blanket of inertia begs you not to move 

And a million voices from a billion hurts whisper through this haze of heat and hope and paralyzing fear 

No one stays forever 

And as the music brings you back to days long forgotten, love and anticipation, goodbyes and laughter through tears

pain 

you thought you just might not survive 

Lying here next to her, you wonder how you did 

And why 

And how did this new life come to meet you 

Where you left off

Where you cut off 

The pain 

when and where and however you could 

Watching to see what she understands, how far you can go, how deep into yourself ?

You want to admit that you remember 

Confessions of 

Redemption from 

Could this really be not too late? 

I breathe in a strength that comes from 

Most likely a good imagination 

Dreams and promises take my place 

Take up space 

Dislodging sadness and guilt and death bed confessions 

20 years in the making

I wait for tomorrow and as I do 

I notice the sky 

The sky today

And the sound of her voice and the comfort we have captured 

And happiness is fleeting 

But I will remember these moments shrouded in love 

And I will remember them every day, as time stretches farther before us than I ever could have bet on 

Or I will remember them tomorrow 

And mourn the rest