My life was a storm the night you were born.

My mind was a tangle of madness and loss, and I never expected you to appear

To appear to me that day a brand new life to replace that which the earth had taken, was it to be any other way

You couldn’t wait for me and I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t ready to hold that tiny tiny human i had made

Born in the storm, surviving the roughest ocean my days had seen

I wasn’t ready to love you

You caught me by surprise, in many ways, and you have never stopped

My little boy blue

I feared you had inherited my sadness

You wept for 30 days and 30 nights, and now I know, that you knew then

More than we

Had we only heeded your warning…

But I remember the first time you smiled.

 And I never will forget how I cried

The happiness I had forgotten existed, you brought that back to me.

I don’t know if I will ever be able to give that back to you

Time has a way of running out sometimes

It’s too late for many things

But you came to us at the perfect moment amidst a night of ashes rose the strongest little boy I know

My little boy blue

Born with a storm in your eyes, a reflection of mistakes I’ve made

you held the calmness that comes before it

As if you knew

As if you knew how much the world needed this soul

Of yours

My little tiny baby that would change the world

That pulled me out of a storm

if only for a moment reminded me of beauty, and second chances